I want to name the place I'm currently residing in as the "Wallow Pool". I figure if people can swim in the shallow end of a pool, I can only describe how I've been feeling as swimming in a pool of self-pity or the Wallow Pool.
Lately, there are more than enough days where I feel as though I'm swimming in the world's longest swimming pool with really strong currents. I'm not drowning, but constantly feel as though water is splashing in my face making it incredibly difficult to see the edge of the pool I am trying to get out of. And it's always just beyond my reach.
I need to put on some fins.....
Fins are a great idea, but if I swim too fast with them on, I fear I might ram my head in the wall.
Maybe a kick board is a better option. In fact, I know it is. It'll get me to my destination and will protect me if I hit the wall before I actually get a chance to see it.
It make take longer to get to the edge, but in my case, I think it best to swim slowly.
I need to do one thing a day to better my situation. It can be writing that kick-ass cover letter (which may or may not lead to the end result I want), trying a new food or recipe, practice the art of writing, blog, read blogs, learn something new, dance just because, streamline my overall life or face a fear (right now it's a constant unknown with every financial call I have).
I realize my kick-board doesn't have to be big to be effective, but I realize everyday if I do something it is one more day I'll get closer to the end of the pool; one more day I'll start feeling better about me. But, really, it's one more step towards facing my biggest fears with confidence.
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I so know how you feel, and I love your metaphor. And, the thing about using a kick board is that when you're just too tired or too lost to kick for a little while, you can bring it in and put your chin on it and it will keep you afloat while you figure out what your next step should be. 'Cause if you stop kicking and take stock of where the worst waves are breaking, maybe you can figure out the best direction to swim! Love that on so many levels.
you know, to get to the edge it is one step at a time...one thing you can do today...one thing tomorrow...one the next day....
I am cheering you on... one day at a time.
xoxoxo jj
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
You know you're a grandmother when you start giving life lessons in kid movie quotes. (That quote is from Dora in 'Finding Nemo', just in case you don't watch kid movies.)
You can do this. And I'm holding a fruity cocktail with one of those little umbrellas in it, at the edge of the pool, just for you.
♥Spot
I've been wallowing for awhile. Not sure what to do next, how to go about it, whether to give up and take a holiday until next year when I come back fresh and new.
Who knows?
Love the swimming metaphor; I'm sure we can all relate. Sometimes, I welcome the "Pool Closed for Cleaning" sign :)
I like that that you say {as|like} my friend thanks
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