Monday, July 14, 2009....
In May 2008, I was laid off from my employer. During the first month, I interviewed with a particular company and received a summons for jury duty (I didn't have to serve).
Fast forward one year and I find I am still unemployed, but the weirdest thing happened. I had a repeat of last year.
I applied for and recently interviewed at that first company and received another summons for jury duty.
In fact, I interviewed again with 2 out of the same 3 people. How odd is that? The recruiter hadn't a clue about this because it was a different recruiter from last year. I think she was a bit surprised when I mentioned this to her because they hadn't said a word to her.
I have to admit, there was a part of me that hoped they didn't remember interviewing me (it could be because they didn't hire me last year - not enough industry experience), but a part that had hoped they remembered me because it means I would have left some impression on them. Turns out, they remembered.
Summons for jury duty canceled again.
These 2 instances left me wondering if my life was going to mimic the movie Groundhog Day. Was I going to live the same year over and over again? If so, what is my lesson? What is my a-ha moment that has me moving into a new year, new future?
I'm glad I'm not in the same mental place I was last year. Sure, I was wish I was financially in the same place last year, but I've learned a lot that I don't think I would have learned if employed full-time.
I'm a girl that hasn't figured out the concept of balance and have a tendency to ignore one part of my life. When I was working, I had a reason to ignore my personal life. It was just easier than having to take the time to figure out what I needed to be happy.
I've always known I'm not perfect (I'm close - NOT), but in the past, I never wanted to forgive my flaws or even acknowledge they are part of who I am. Now I do. I recognize the good, bad and ugly make up me.
I'm still learning patience, but have learned that before you feel the need to offer unsolicited advice to others, look at oneself first (translation, I think most everyone need to learn their own lessons). I'm not as impatient as I was 12 months ago, but consider this a work in progress.
I haven't a clue what the future holds for me, but until I become gainfully employed, I will use this gift of time to listen to all the things I've tried to ignore because I didn't know what to do or how to fix it. I'll probably become frustrated, stumble, fall and may even be successful. But, whatever happens, I know that I'm finally looking in a mirror not just glancing at me.