Friday, July 10, 2009

My Own Personal Groundhog Day

Monday, July 14, 2009....

In May 2008, I was laid off from my employer. During the first month, I interviewed with a particular company and received a summons for jury duty (I didn't have to serve).

Fast forward one year and I find I am still unemployed, but the weirdest thing happened. I had a repeat of last year.

I applied for and recently interviewed at that first company and received another summons for jury duty.

In fact, I interviewed again with 2 out of the same 3 people. How odd is that? The recruiter hadn't a clue about this because it was a different recruiter from last year. I think she was a bit surprised when I mentioned this to her because they hadn't said a word to her.

I have to admit, there was a part of me that hoped they didn't remember interviewing me (it could be because they didn't hire me last year - not enough industry experience), but a part that had hoped they remembered me because it means I would have left some impression on them. Turns out, they remembered.

Summons for jury duty canceled again.

These 2 instances left me wondering if my life was going to mimic the movie Groundhog Day. Was I going to live the same year over and over again? If so, what is my lesson? What is my a-ha moment that has me moving into a new year, new future?

I'm glad I'm not in the same mental place I was last year. Sure, I was wish I was financially in the same place last year, but I've learned a lot that I don't think I would have learned if employed full-time.

I'm a girl that hasn't figured out the concept of balance and have a tendency to ignore one part of my life. When I was working, I had a reason to ignore my personal life. It was just easier than having to take the time to figure out what I needed to be happy.

I've always known I'm not perfect (I'm close - NOT), but in the past, I never wanted to forgive my flaws or even acknowledge they are part of who I am. Now I do. I recognize the good, bad and ugly make up me.

I'm still learning patience, but have learned that before you feel the need to offer unsolicited advice to others, look at oneself first (translation, I think most everyone need to learn their own lessons). I'm not as impatient as I was 12 months ago, but consider this a work in progress.

I haven't a clue what the future holds for me, but until I become gainfully employed, I will use this gift of time to listen to all the things I've tried to ignore because I didn't know what to do or how to fix it. I'll probably become frustrated, stumble, fall and may even be successful. But, whatever happens, I know that I'm finally looking in a mirror not just glancing at me.

12 comments:

maria.palermo said...

LMB, this entry totally moved me, as I was reading what you have gone through, I thought I was reading about myself. I need help with patience, do you have any advice?

Tasha said...

You have an amazing attitude and I'm inspired by the way you are being so positive about things! Good for you!

Life, Love And Lola said...

You're an inspiration!!!

lacochran said...

"How odd is that?"

Pretty dang odd. Bizarre, even. Good luck with the job thingy if you want it.

Heckety said...

It takes a really strong person to admit that they are a work in progress. I hope if I was ever in your situation I'd have the grace you show.
Don't worry about Groundhog Day, I think Bill Murray is busy elsewhere...

Cheryl said...

Great post. I can relate... It does seem like times like this, the ones we wish would end NOW, that we are learning the most about ourselves. Too bad we usually have to be forced into it, though.

CC. said...

yes yes in the mall! right near h&m at that end near the new part. two floor forever21, check it out! and check out alive at 5 thursday if ur around too :)

otin said...

Coincidence? I tend to be a bit of a conspiracy theorist. Maybe the place that you interviewed with has some deal where they submit aqpplicants names to the courts! I am just saying....

LiLu said...

Good for you, Ms. Glass Half Full. You can use this time to catch up on all those things that weigh on the back of your mind... it will feel so good!

Pinay in Dutchland said...

i've often wondered how it is to be a jury because of the john grisham books i used to read.

i can understand what youre feeling. there are just instances that we have to make do with we have at the moment. everything falls into their right places at the right time. goodluck,

Little Ms Blogger said...

mp: start in traffic, best place to practice patience.

Tasha: Thanks!

LL&Lola: Wow, thanks.

Lacochran: Isn't it though? Maybe I should play lotto. Wait, didn't win last year, probably not good odds for this year.

Heckety: Thanks, but I wish I had finished up by now.

Cheryl: Yeah, I wish I could do this stuff without being backed in a corner.

CC: Do u live in Stamford? I'm in Norwalk...

Otin: Wow. Impressed at the leap from corporation to court system - wait, both begin with a 'c' so maybe not a far stretch.

Pinay: I've come close and never want to be on one. I think I'd be bored out of my mind or left disturbed if murder case.

miss rambles said...

this was a very inspiring post and as someone also unemployed it got me thinking...i will never have this time again so you are right i should work on the other facets of my life tht i would normally ignore if i had a job...thanks hun.